[Gpdd] MISC: About Topper's "Rainbow Bridge Post"

[Candy G.]

Greetings, Dear Friends,
 
I want to thank (and thank and thank and thank) 
those of you who have already written to me about 
the loss of our dear sweet boy, Topper, and to offer 
my thanks in advance for the notes still to come and 
for the unspoken love and support that I know you 
are sending our way.  The words and sentiments in 
your emails, and the many silent thoughts that so 
many of you are sending for comfort and healing, 
mean more than I could even begin to tell you.  I 
will answer each and every one of the notes I am 
receiving when I can type without drenching the 
keyboard with tears.
 
AND - At the end of Topper's long Rainbow Bridge 
post when I thanked everyone for taking the time 
to read it, I had no idea what a challenge it was 
going to be for anyone (including me) to work their 
way through that email!
 
When I sent it, it was all nice and neat - divided into 
nice paragraphs and margined on both sides so there 
wouldn't be any run-on lines, etc.  I almost had a 
heart attack when I saw it in the digest!!!  I NEVER 
expected anyone to have to wade through a jumbled, 
eight-mile long single paragraph!!  
 
I don't know what happened, folks.  I guess maybe it 
was so long that, when it arrived, the digest just lost 
its mind and crashed.  Please accept my apologies 
for it being so messed up and hard to read.  I wanted 
it to be so absolutely perfect for Topper.  I really don't 
think this is one of his pranks because it has just broken 
my heart to have it turn out that way and he would 
never play a trick on me that would hurt me so deeply.
 
So, EXTRA thanks to all of you who tackled that post 
and actually made sense of it.  My desire (compulsion
- ha) is to re-send it in sections and have it on record 
in a readible fashion but (rejoice dear ones!) I am not 
going to give in to 'my control-freak self' and do that.
[Ohhhhh, but I want to!  I want to!!  I want to!!!  :) ]
 
Lastly, a "P.S." regarding my dear hubby.  He read my 
posts about Topper - the Bridge one with the comments 
about Duke's birthday party and the corrections one 
about 'sweatheart' (duh) - and said, "Are people going 
to think you are being flip about losing Topper?  You 
never really tell people know how devastated you are 
inside."  I replied, "Honey, whether I am talking about 
crying buckets-full of tears for the rest of my life or 
talking about that little poot playing tricks on me and 
making me look like an idiot, everybody in the digest 
will know EXACTLY what I am saying and feeling and - 
more than anyone else on this planet - they will 
understand completely the grief that is in my heart."
 
And that is the beautiful truth.  What an incredible 
comfort you all are.  I don't think I could have survived 
Mollie's and, now, Topper's losses without you. Thank you.
 
Candy and the notorious Cat X
(with TopperMan and MollieBug always in our hearts)