[Gpdd] RAINBOW BRIDGE: belated condolences, BG

[Cazza177]

> Dear Cindy

I did try to email you back using your personal email address, but it 
bounced back, so I am sending my reply again to you, this time via the 
Digest.
>
> Thank you for taking the time to email and for your kind words.  I am 
> still coming to terms with the way I had to deal with the last 4 weeks of 
> BG's life.  I wanted him to be here at home, but I was fearful of my lack 
> of knowledge of the condition he had -- no one knew exactly what was 
> wrong, but everyone said it was lung-related, and he was getting gradually 
> worse.  The vets here were next to useless and Vedra at CCT was an hours 
> drive away, so if I had an emergency, it was never easy.  After BG's lungs 
> were x-rayed (at Vedra's suggestion), she said she could not help as she 
> could not give 24/7 care, as she had too many other pigs in, and my vets 
> are just not up to speed on rodents. The rodentologists I took him to are 
> the ones Penny takes her gp's to, and they are very good, but I only wish 
> that they were much nearer, as I wanted to see BG so much more than just 
> the once a week. Each week I couldn't wait to get there, then all the way 
> home I would be miserable and full of guilt.
>
> BG was an insightful guinea pig and was capable of thought. I wonder how 
> much he thought each time I left 'why am I not going home?' A few days 
> before he passed, he'd had a bad spell, but picked up again really well, 
> and I was going to ask (on the Friday that I was due to visit) if he could 
> come home for a few days, as I felt I could do that. It wasn't to be, as 
> he passed on the Wednesday.
>
> He had excellent care, and the rodentologists were so kind to him, but the 
> guilt I feel about not caring for him myself at the end will, I know, stay 
> with me forever. I just hope that someday BG will be able to forgive me.
>
> Thank you so much for emailing me.
>
> Kind regards
>
> Carole