[Gpdd] MISC: Snoopy

[corrine sakumoto]

Hello.  I'm sorry I'm still not up to writing much.  I'll try to explain better later if possible.  For now, I've informed my husband, Michael, to please 'let me go.'  I nearly passed and had to go emergency and then two surgeries, a year and a half ago.  I feel responsible for what happened to him.  On Monday he was fine and normal all day.  It was early evening that I noticed he would just stand there and slightly lurch.  That's when I listened to his lungs and heard that 'click.'  There are no emergency vets for guinea pigs here on the Big Island of Hawaii as far as I know.  So, in a certain way, I do hope I 'go' since I deserve it after what I did to little Snoopy.  My little son was the most sweetest and cutest little guy ever!  He never got ill so he hardly got much attention because our attention was directed to the ill ones.  So that always made me feel bad, especially when he got older.  And now I can't make it up to him.  I feel worse than
 awful.  I thought he'd always be here, sounds dumb I know, but he was always so healthy, I just assumed he'd always be here!  He deserved better than a mommy like me.....

This will be the sixth 'box' since we moved here two and a half years ago.  No, it doesn't get any easier to lose them.  If anything, it gets harder.

Thanks for listening,

Corrine