[Gpdd] Rainbow Bridge, Li'l Red Saphire

[Ronald Zimmerman]

I'm very sorry Ellen. Lil Red was a GPDD piggie, therefore one of our own, & she will be missed. Losses seem to come in numbers. Only God knows why. I am sad for you & all who have left you but we will all be together with our loved ones (both human & animal) someday, I truly do believe. My thoughts & prayers are with you. Hugs...

~Jaime, Mimi & Captain Phil the betta fish~
~Missing Albert, Molly, Radar & Daisy~
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--- On Sat, 1/28/12, Ellen Garrison <guineamom88 at yahoo.com> wrote:

> From: Ellen Garrison <guineamom88 at yahoo.com>
> Subject: Rainbow Bridge, Li'l Red Saphire
> To: "ann.evans at hintlink.com" <ann.evans at hintlink.com>, "warm breath (shipwreck sam)" <warmbreath at comcast.net>, "penny gpdd" <piggyfriends at tesco.net>, "jaime and mimi" <rzm.2 at verizon.net>, "cindy gpdd" <calliope at geeksnet.com>, "dogcatpiggymom at yahoo.com" <dogcatpiggymom at yahoo.com>
> Date: Saturday, January 28, 2012, 6:10 AM
> 
> 
> Hi everyone,
> 
> I will post of  this to Gpdd too. I wanted to mention it
> to you first.  It's hard to post anything right now,  I am
> in so much grief and you know, we want to be happy; and
> sometimes it's just not on my radar! I am looking into
> getting a book on Amazon titled Healing Grief, by James Van
> Praagh.  It is so hard, to lose loved ones regardless.  I
> love my pets, that is the bottom line.
> 
> It's normal to feel sad, if someone close dies, and there
> have been some lately in my life. 
> 
> I feel like "why didn't I take her to the vet like I had
> planned, last week, to help her to the bridge?" And the
> answer is: because she seemed lively when I came home, last
> week Tuesday (the 17th). She greeted me when I came home
> from work.  She showed interest in food.  I just did not
> feel that it was the right time to end her too-short life of
> 32 months.  And I held on to hope that maybe Saint Francis
> of Assisi, patron saint of animals, really did do something.
> Well, if so, he gave us one week longer. 2 days ago she
> showed signs of slowing down. However I still did not think
> anything different, until she would not eat when I tried to
> syringe-feed her 'Critter Be Better' yesterday.  I was very
> upset, and felt myself becoming frustrated and scared. 
> Since I am a night owl in general, it was 9:00 pm when I
> left a message on the vet's voice mailbox, last night, and
> shortly after that, I contacted Sandy via email.
>   I did not want to contact the other vet's after-hours
> emergency line (they really don't seem to care too much; the
> charges are astronomical, and I don't really have that kind
> of money, although I have not tried to count how much I have
> already spent on vet bills, as it is, they already charge an
> arm and a leg, and then some.  
> 
>  I felt horrible that Li'l Red was suffering, that she was
> ready to go; I had regrets; I had wished I had all the pain
> meds to help her to the bridge, but all I had was ibuprofen
> and rimadyl,  I gave her children's ibuprofen (non-dyed,
> grape flavored) earlier in the day. When I noticed her
> condition, that she was dying, even though it was awful and
> I still did not really accept it, I gave her some more of
> that ibuprofen about 0.5 mL to get her out of pain, which
> thank God she did swallow, even in her state; I don't know
> what got to her, she could have gotten pneumonia,  she was
> lying on her side, and doing that running thing, and I just
> held her and grieved for everybody.  Then I thought that
> because she was still conscious, I mean she was looking at
> me, and such a sweet little face, even without the weight
> she needed she was still adorable, I wanted to help her
> sleep, to alleviate the pain if at all possible, so I mixed
> about half of a packet of
>  something I had gotten at the drugstore, "SuperC".  it's
> by www.drinksuperc.com. It says "Rest your body and
> mind...ZZZzzz" on the package. it has electrolytes,
> antioxidants, amino acids, and melatonin, which I normally
> do not take, unless I'm jet-lagged, which hasn't happened
> recently since I haven't gone anywhere in 3 years. I gave
> her a little bit of that in water (tastes like mint/lemon),
> and put her on a soft piggy bed, covered her, then checked a
> few minutes later and her eyes were closing.  I had gotten
> myself very attached to this little one, and it was very
> hard to let go. When I woke up today I checked on her, I had
> wrapped her in one of her fav blankets, and I finally
> realized she had gone to the bridge. It was so hard to
> accept. But I felt relief that she was no longer suffering,
> that this ordeal with her was over. As I sat and cried for
> my niece, and all the piggies, that had crossed over the
> bridge, my mom, dad, etc. I felt a wave of
>  relief, vast relief, knowing that one day we will all be
> together again. I really want to know that. I really want to
> feel good. I really feel bad that I let my piggie suffer,
> that looking back I have let other pets suffer because of
> sheer ignorance.  and I feel like I can't let that happen
> ever again. I have made mistakes, true, we all do, but I
> can't stand judgement and can't stand beating up on
> myself.  There is a spiritual link, that binds us together.
> thanks for being there, and listening, if you did. Love,
> Ellen
>