[Gpdd] RAINBOW BRIDGE: Hugo

[GARY HESS]

Dear Julie,

I'm terribly sorry to hear about Hugo. I know what you mean about not being able to relax for fear of losing another one. As I type this at my sister's house, I'm listening to my mom breathing in the next room, concerned that each breath might be her last. She's eighty-nine years old and, riddled with cancer, is in her last days. It occurs to me, though, that I can't MAKE her live and I shouldn't feel guilty about that. I can only support her and keep her comfortable. And I'm okay with that--most of the time. It's easy to let fear and guilt rob you of your peace. Our furbabies want us to be happy, but it's so hard to when worry steps in. They don't fear death the way we do; they know where they're going with the Bridge in clear sight. If you find it hard to function because of the stress, don't be afraid to seek a good, understanding doctor. I myself am not ashamed to be on antidepressants since my brain chemicals aren't functioning normally on their
 own. I don't think I could handle losing Mom without them. I'm sending love and prayers to you and the boys.

Love,

Joanie