[Gpdd] RAINBOW BRIDGE: Bertie Pig

[julie johnson]

Dear Leah,

I wish to pass on to you my sincerest condolences and saddest feelings for
what you are suffering through right now.    It brings back sad memories to
so many of us at the GPDD, all of us having suffered through what you are
going through right now, and whilst there's no way anyone can take away your
pain, please know that I understand exactly how you feel, and how you will
feel for a long time to come.

 

One thing that was a blessing for both Bertie Pig and yourself was that he
appeared to know what was happening with him, he was accepting of what was
happening (I think our babies are very intelligent both emotionally and
intellectually) and his love for you kept him with you until he left for the
Bridge.  That you didn't need to help him cross the Bridge would have been a
blessing for you both, because you spent the maximum time you could
together, cuddling, loving, remembering beautiful memories, before Bertie
Pig realised he couldn't ignore the call from all his friends before him to
cross over the Rainbow Bridge.    That he stared at you for so long I have
no doubt he was looking deep into your heart, your soul, and could sense
your pain and with his deep, knowing looks he was surely telling you he
loved you, he was thanking you for all of your love and care, and I don't
doubt he was telling you he would be okay in the perfect evergreen and lush
world he was heading for.

 

I am bawling my eyes out because what you wrote was so relevant to us all,
and in particular when you said you couldn't write any more just yet,
because that is how I feel about losing both Sooty & Kimba within 4 days of
each other.    

 

What I am feeling now I am sure is what you are feeling too:      lost,
bereft, desolate, lonely, sad, heartbroken, depressed, miserable, sorrowful,
can't see much of a future without your baby, can't believe it, can't come
to terms with losing Bertie, wish you had had so much more time, maybe
feeling guilt if you thought there was more you could have done, but there
wasn't because you nursed him through his last month with all the love
within your heart, spirit, soul and brain.  And I bet you can't see out of
your swollen eyes from the never-ending tears.

 

I have yet to write a tribute to my boys, but it is just 2 weeks since they
left me and I cannot yet write any more than describing my current feelings
which I am sure are mirrored with your feelings now.

 

May God bless you, comfort you in His strong and loving arms, and may you
feel the hugs of pure love from all your friends at the GPDD, trying to
comfort you at a time when there can be no comfort.

 

But know that you are much loved still by Bertie Pig in his new home with
his bestest friends in paradise, and that you are much loved by all your
GPDD friends,

 

Sadly at such a tragic time,

Julie & Treacle xxx