[Gpdd] MISC: Snowy Bear, in my heart

[ME]

Corrine, I do understand how you're feeling.  The vet should have  
consulted you.  I hope that in your head, you know that what happened  
is not your fault.  Snowy Bear was sick and you sought medical  
attention, which was the right thing to do.

You do need to give time to let your emotions have a voice,  
though ... and if blaming yourself is part of that, then everyone on  
the GPDD telling you it isn't your fault doesn't give you comfort.   
But in time, they will ... and I hope you're open to allowing  
yourself to forgive yourself for what you think is your fault.

We all do the best we can in the situation.  Snowy Bear needed help  
and you found someone you hoped would help.  The one you really  
trusted said he couldn't, so you had to find someone else.  I don't  
understand how she could have done what she did, but I have to wonder  
if something went terribly wrong during the exploratory surgery that  
she felt she had to cover up.  You would hope she would be truthful  
about such things, but maybe she panicked.

Take the time to grieve and allow yourself time to feel the loss.   
Allow yourself to be angry.  Know you're not alone.  And know in your  
head that you are a good mom, even though you don't feel like one  
right now.